post-surgery recap

  • Jul. 1st, 2006 at 1:57 AM
cali: (rose mcgowan)
Uh. So some of this might be TMI or whatever, but some of you might be interested, and I'm feeling a lot more up to typing it all out now so here's the recap of the breast reduction. I might, at some point, post under friendslock the before/after pictures my doctor took, but that will have to wait a while because I totally haven't reached the after stage at all.

The basics:
The surgery took about 3 and a half hours. They took out close to 3 pounds of breast tissue and I went from a 36DDD to a low 36C.

read all about it )

In summation:

movies watched, 3: Harold and Maude, The Producers, Superman Returns.
tv watched, a ton: Seasons 1 and 2 of Grey's Anatomy (LOVED!), 2 episodes of Dark Angel (omg Jessica Alba is painful to watch) 2 episodes of Gilmore Girls (also sort of painful to watch) The BBC/Colin Firth version of Pride and Prejudice (awesome, very, very awesome.)
percocet taken: 24 over approx. 72 hours (about 1 every 3 hours.)
advil taken: I could not possibly begin to count. A lot. I'm not in much pain anymore aside from muscle stiffness but the advil helps with inflammation so I need to keep taking it.
time slept: a lot. Strangely, the first night I woke up every hour on the hour. The second night I did the same every two hours and the pattern continued over the third and fourth night. Weird.

The most pain I've had, interestingly, hasn't been my breasts themselves, but my back muscles which got really tense from having to stay so immobile for a couple days. Unfortunately, that's one of those things that they don't warn you about.

Advice I'd have for other people who elect to get the surgery: Get a good zip-front sports bra or two (at least one size larger than normal) and a couple tank tops for wearing post surgery. Book at least two massage appointments 5 to 7 days from your surgery. Buy easily cooked and eaten food ahead of time unless you have someone cooking for you. Stock up on vitamin water, arnica, advil, a small bike bottle, and paper plates because real plates are going to feel too heavy. And definitely, definitely have a friend/parent/relative who can take care of you for at least a couple days cause you are not going to feel up to doing anything up to and including flushing the toilet and washing under your arms.

Oh and also, my doctor told me that for scarring silicone sheets like these are actually quite effective and that "if I were his daughter he would have me use them."

Reading this over before posting I notice that I haven't said a single word about how I feel about my results. And the only possible answer I can give is fantastic. I keep looking in the mirror and staring at my awesome breasts. They're the perfect size for my body now and I feel so much better. I can't tell you how good it is to not feel dominated by my chest. I can't wait to go shopping in a few weeks (and I really can't wait to get back to the gym in two weeks, the lack of workouts and my ability to move easily is driving me a little nuts.) But seriously, impatience aside I don't think I could possibly be happier, it really helps that I have a lot of really awesome friends and a fantastic mom and dad who took care of me this past week.

Anyway, I'm going to wrap this up but if any of you have any questions, or want to refer other people to me, feel free!

new searchable(!) website for my recs

  • Apr. 25th, 2006 at 9:01 PM
cali: (sex)
Whew. It took for-freaking-ever to get everything transfered over with rating and word counts and such but I am so, so pleased to announce that I've updated my recs website in a huge fashion. Now powered by wordpress, all of my recs are totally searchable by fandom, author, wordcount, ratings and more.

With over 340(!!!) stories to read, maybe you'll find some you've not read before; also I normally just rec stories as they come to me but I might be going back to rec some old favorites now that I've finished with the site update.

It's a new url too, so if you have bookmarks, delicious or otherwise, don't forget to update them!

[ theantimodel's fic recs ]

os x programs I cannot live without

  • Apr. 13th, 2006 at 12:24 PM
cali: (microsoft)
Of the free and, they will nag you but not charge you variety:

Acquisition. For p2p file sharing, good for music downloading.
Adium. A good instant messaging program, works with AIM, MSN, Jabber, Yahoo, and more.
Azureus. for bittorrenting.
CharCounter. A nifty, no frills little app that counts characters and words when you cut and paste into it.
Cocktail. A general purpose maintenence utility. os x has a set of maintenence scripts set to run at like 4 or 5 am but most people shut their computers down or put them to sleep at night so cocktail will let you choose when to run them (and more.)
Firefox. Great web browser; useful extensions: flashblock, tabs mix plus: saves your sessions in case of crashes and more.
igetter. A good download manager for os x.
mplayer. A nice, simple media player for avi files.
Quicksilver. The best thing to happen to os x ever. especially if you're on a laptop and you're completely reliant on your keyboard and track pad. This tutorial might be helpful.
Smultron. A really nice, non processor intensive html and text editor (unlike dreamweaver if all you want to do it edit html.) I love this app a lot.
vlc media player. Another media player, much like mplayer but it can sometimes be useful to have both just in case one doesn't want to play a fil and another one does.
xjournal. My favorite of the available downloadable livejournal clients.

Lastly, it's not free but it is a good ftp application: transmit.

Do you guys have any other os x program recs? I'm always looking for new nifty computer programs.

mmmmmm cookies part deux

  • Dec. 19th, 2005 at 9:00 PM
cali: (gael)
Some of my favorite recipes, because [ profile] saffronlie asked.

Gingerbread Cookies )

Decorators' icing )

Gingerbread cake )
cali: (rose mcgowan)
House 2x03 is downloading right now. I'm reading CSI fanfiction, of all things. And I fell over while going up some stairs a little bit ago. So basically, all is right with the world at this point.

Also, Viggo was on Letterman the other night and he tells these two really awesome stories, one about David Cronenberg (director of A History of Violence) and one about growing up in Argentina and going duck hunting at the tender age of 3. Viggo is, so my favorite. I edited the file down to Viggo's interview if any of you are interested in downloading it.
[ Viggo Mortensen - Letterman - 09-23-05 ] -- mpg, 88mb
Also, here's Elijah's appearance on Conan O'Brien's show from the other week:
[ Elijah Wood - Conan O'Brien - Part 1 ] -- mpg, 65mb
[ Elijah Wood - Conan O'Brien - Part 2 ] -- mpg, 45mb
And speaking of Elijah, I was riding my bike to school the other day and there was Elijah all trussed up in duct tape on the side of a bus. It was a very squeeful moment before a pretty boring class.

Lastly, and this one is mostly for [ profile] hackthis' benefit (with thanks to [ profile] zsuness for the clip) here's a short clip of Ryan Gosling and Rachel MacAdams accepting a Teen Choice Award earlier this year:
[ Ryan Gosling - Teen Choice Awards ] -- mpg, 35mb
Also relating to Ryan: the trailer for Stay is out and the movie looks creepy as hell. I seriously hope it spawns some Ryan/Ewan fic at some point, cause that'd be hot, yo.

okay, lastly for real now. My paid account expired the other day and I haven't bothered to re-up yet. Which got me thinking about how the world hasn't ended and livejournal still works at the same speed it did when I was paying for it (as far as I can tell so far) so now I'm thinking maybe I'll just stick with the money saving because I like my layout how it is, I don't post polls much at all, and I think I can probably live without the icons. Yay for saving money!

And speaking of money saving, I switched over to Dreamhost for webhosting and not only are they really responsive, they let their customers give out promo codes with discounts. So if any of you are looking for webhosting they're offering a years hosting with 4.8gb of storage and 120gb of bandwidth per month for $22.50 for the whole year just use the promo code: KILLERSTAR when you checkout, and make sure you've chosen the yearly payment plan. Fucking awesome, no?

tags, laziness, recs poll

  • Jun. 24th, 2005 at 7:55 PM
cali: (Default)
There's something about switching styles that's a bit like moving into a new house. Everything has to be just right, and you spend hours figuring out where to put things. I've been resisting s2 styles since their implementation, mostly because I had everything organized just right under my s1 style. But the tags broke me. They're were just too useful to ignore. So. new style. check it out: [ profile] theantimodel.

I'm using flexible squares with a whole lot of customizations. I recommend checking out [ profile] s2flexisquares if you're thinking about switching, there are a lot of helpful add ons detailed there. Also, [ profile] wistfuljane is a font of knowledge and helpfulness. Check out her post on tags. So far I've got 2005 fully tagged. It took a while, I'm not exactly looking forward to finishing the job, but it will do my OCD brain good to have a greater level of organization. For your reference: you can check out all of my tags on my journal's frontpage. I've got links to all the media I've shared by fandom as well as recs and polls and whatnot. So. If you ever see anything listed under media that you missed, feel free to ask me to reupload it.

Other things: If you have a mac and you aren't using xjournal I think you're missing out. The new version supports tags, very cool!

I really meant to go to critical mass tonight. It would have been cool, but I lost track of time doing all the lj configuration. I kinda suck. Especially since my out of town friends actually came down for the ride. Clearly, they are more dedicated than I.

I have a flickr account. If any of you are interested. I usually post real-life pictures and stuff there. I posted pics of last month's critical mass over there in case any of you are interested.

I have a fic recs journal ([ profile] anti_recs) and hmmm, I think I started it because I didn't want to spam my flist with random posts of names and links, but lately I've been making much more traditional recs posts over there. And for sake of organization (having all my recs separated into one easy to find place) I'm going to keep posting them but I think I'm going to start posting them here too.

[Poll #519758]


  • May. 13th, 2005 at 2:10 AM
cali: (Hate.  Lots of Hate.)
Well it looks like btefnet has gone down due to the MPAA suing them. This is incredibly suckass in so many, many ways. It was easily the best of the bittorrent sites. In the meantime I'm linking to as many as I can here so I'll have some hope of being able to download the last shows of the season. So far I've got:

Torrent Spy
Unreal Torrents
The Pirate Bay
My Bittorrent
Torrent Reactor

And Orb's Torrent Site Status
The Calendar for TV

Anyone else got any?

skin care recs

  • May. 9th, 2005 at 2:10 PM
cali: (Default)
[ profile] powrhug started it, but I've been meaning to post about this for a while.

Make-Up/Skin Care Recs

Face: I have pretty heavily combination skin. Oily in the t-zone, dry cheeks, the works. And I've always been a big fan of skin care products, I used to use Clinique, but I've moved on to Origins in the last couple years. The have a great line for combination skin (and I can only assume the same for other skin-types.)

Cleanser: I start with Checks and Balances which is a great face wash that isn't too drying or damaging to sensitive skin.

Toner/"balancing tonic": United States. I don't always use this one but I think it does help to use it before moisturizing.

Moisturizers: Make A Difference. Hands down the best moisturizer I've ever used. It's expensive but one sub will last you at least 6 months, you can use it daily and nightly, and it's just. heavenly. I finish with Have A Nice Day it's SPF-15 and is night and lightweight. I use it every morning and it definitely helps.

Foundation: I use MAC's Select Tint SPF 15 It's liquid which is perfect for me since compact-style foundation doesn't work with my dry skin, but it's not oily or heavy like too many liquid foundations are.

Eyes: I'm a complete MAC girl. I use their eyeshadows pretty much exclusively. I also don't use eyeliner anymore, instead I use one of their superthin brushes to apply eyeshadow over my lash line. I've found that it looks a LOT better than traditional liner does, all the noticeability without the unnaturalness. Mascara: I'm not too picky about mascara honestly, my eyelashes have never given me too many problems, and I don't curl them but I've been using Neutrogena's Full Volume Mascara for the last 6 months or so and I love it. It's got great volume and it never clumps. Also, it's totally safe for sensitive eyes.

Lips: Oh man, I've always just been a chapstick/lip gloss kind of girl and I've found the PERFECT lip gloss. It's Bath and Body Works' Tutti Dolci Lip Gloss. It comes in 6 flavors of varying tints and I'm absolutely in love with the Chocolate Fondue. Not only does it taste better than any lipgloss ever has in the entire world, it lasts FOREVER and its goes on smooth and light. It's honestly the perfect lip gloss. You should ALL try it. Seriously, I went to the store, tried it on, licked my lips, and went holy shit I need to make out with someone my lips taste so good!

Cheeks: I don't use blush but I went to Sephora the other week and while my friend was trying on various products I accidentally fell in love with this horribly expensive blush by Tarte. It's amazing. I've never looked good with blush on but I just dabbed the Blushing Bride on (no technique required!) and all of a sudden I had fabulous cheekbones! I resisted buying it but I've been thinking about it all week so I think I should go back and get it.

Body I use some sort of body something every day. My regular body soap is by Lush, it's called Demon in the Dark. It's green and it smells amazing, it's perfect for waking up. It's hmm, the website says minty but I've never found it to be overly minty. I've always found it to be fun and kicky. When I'm really treating myself though I go for my Bath and Body Works Relax Sugar Scrub. It's the sandalwood rose scent and it's absolutely amazing. The scent is incredibly relaxing, and it lasts long after you get out of the shower. Everytime I use it at least one person tells me that I smell good. Stuff like this makes me wish that the internet was scratch and sniff because there's no way to accurately describe the fabulousness that is the sandalwood rose scent.

Sunscreen: I've got really, really fair skin. I burn within 15 minutes of going outdoors if I don't have sunscreen. My whole life could probably be described as a quest to find the perfect sunscreen. And I've done it. It's Ocean Potion SPF 50. It has Parsol 1789 in it which is the KEY ingredient for protecting against sunburns, it's oil free and not at all greasy, and best off, it smells fantastic. It doesn't smell anything like sunscreen. You'll never feel gross and sunscreen-sticky again if you use this stuff. Seriously, it's fan-fucking-tastic.

Anyone else have recs?

recs of the book and mac program variety

  • Apr. 4th, 2005 at 3:12 PM
cali: (bittorrent to the rescue)
One of my favorite things about going on vacation is the fact that I always seem to have time to read books. My trip to New York was no exception and I ended up reading the first volume of Neil Gaiman's Sandman Series Preludes and Nocturnes which is brilliant (as expected) and deliciously creepy and moody.

I also read Jonathan Lethem's Motherless Brooklyn for the first time. I've read some of his other books, The Fortress of Solitude and Amnesia Moon are both great books but there was something about Motherless Brooklyn that just blew me away. It's a play on the typical crime novel/murder mystery/detective story in that the narrator is completely unexpected and Lethem used an amazing blend of humor with the more typical crime novel drama. First off, the main character has Tourette's syndrome and the book, written in his voice, is both hilarious and fascinating as a result. Seriously, everyone should read this book. Jonathan Lethem is a literary God. an excerpt: )

I was just compiling a list of useful programs and info for people new to Macs (and osx in particular) and thought some of you might find it useful as well so here's my list.

Best bittorrent program: Azureus

Good bittorrent websites:
torrent reactor
torrent spy

best video player (plays all forms of video files): mplayer

peer2peer downloading (for mp3s and whatnot): Acquisition

best web browser (has tabbed browsing!): Firefox

best random utility programs:
Windowshade (lets you do all sorts of cool stuff with your open windows)

Quicksilver (the BEST program EVER helps you open applications/folders/songs in iTunes/whatever using only a few keystrokes)

Notational Velocity (much better than the sticky notes program)

Konfabulator (a program that uses tiny miniprograms called widgets which do any number of useful things) and the kofabulator widget gallery.

Growl (a notifier program (ex. it pops up a small info box whenever a new song starts in itunes that lists the song title and artist.))

useful keyboard tips and shortcuts:
Pressing the command key (the one with the apple and pound sign on it) and the tab key at the same time pops up a window with all of your open applications in it. If you continue to hold down the command key and press and release the tab button, each program will highlight. It allows you to switch programs without using the dock or your mouse by tabbing over to whatever program you want to switch to and then letting go of both the tab and the command key.

Pressing command and the h key will hide any program you have open.

In firefox command t will open a new tab and command w closes either a tab if you have multiples or the window if you don't. Actually command w will close whatever window you have open in all mac programs.

Also, pressing the command key and the key directly above the tab key (I forget what those symbols are called) will switch you between multiple windows in any one program.

firefox geekery, and movie thoughts

  • Nov. 29th, 2004 at 12:23 AM
cali: (Default)
[ profile] ashlle1 posted about this the other day and it's by far the coolest thing ever if you're into computer geekery and awesome Firefox tricks. So, we all know that Firefox (and Camino) are the coolest browsers out there, right? Well, they just got that much cooler, check this out (completely copy-pasted from [ profile] ashlle1):

The TIP is for Firefox users. I don't know if this works in Mozilla or Netscape, and it likely doesn't work (the same way) for any other browser. But! Ye olde Firefox users, hear me! Have you learned the magic of the special bookmark keywords? Here's how it works:

You bookmark something, as normal. Let's say the LJ Update page, for giggles. Then you go up to the Bookmarks > Manage Bookmarks option. Click on the entry of the page you just bookmarked, and click on properties. It should give you a dialogue giving you options for name, location, keyword, and description. You can name it however you like, but hey, typing in the HTTP address is too hard. Soooo, let's give this a keyword. Mine is "lj.update", but yours can be whatever you want (and will remember). Type it in, press okay, and go back to the main browser. Now anytime you want to make an LJ entry, you simply type "lj.update" or your keyword of choice in the address bar, and bam, there you are.

Too hard to get to your friends page as it is? Save time! Bookmark it with a keyword of 'fl', and in no time you can be hitting the refresh key, waiting for updates.

Let's make this a step more advanced. Oftentimes I like to look up things on Amazon or the IMDB, but entering from the main page just takes far too long. Granted, you can download a plugin (at least for that'll allow you to search the site, but what about the other sites? Let's use IMDB as an example.

Go to the IMDB site, and perform a search for anything. Let's say Adam Brody. [note: just search for adam for this example] When the search page comes up, bookmark it, and follow the same procedure as before to get to the properties of the bookmark you just made. Now, look in the location string. You should see, somewhere in that HTTP, Adam. Replace Adam with %s. No quotation marks anywhere. Then give it a keyword - 'imdb', say. Now say okay, and go back to your browser. In the address bar, type in 'imdb Viggo Mortenson' or who/whatever you'd like to search for. You should immediately be taken to your search results - no extra steps necessary.

A similar process applies for any site you like. %s refers to the text string you enter after your keyword. For example, I have bookmarked with the keyword 'lj', and from there, I can go to any LJer's journal (lj ashlle1) or their friendslist (lj corialis/friends) or their friendsfriends list (lj ashlle1/friendsfriends) or their archives (lj lestrange/calendar) or what have you. I have a similar search string at, Amazon, IMDB. You could do it for Schnoogle, where you'd simply have to type in the author name. Basically, any site that has a regular search string or hierarchical structure can have this applied to it.

In other news, I saw movies this weekend:

Finding Neverland is a wonderful movie. I loved Johnny Depp; and the movie was really well shot. Also, Dustin Hoffman played the least Hoffman-like character I've ever seen. So yeah, go see it, it's a great story.

I also saw National Treasure this weekend. It was, well, not necessarily a good movie, but it was damned entertaining and good fun. Sean Bean was wonderful as always. And if you can ignore the historical innaccuracies and concentrate on the fun, you'll enjoy it. Then again I'm a huge sucker for psuedo-archaelogical, adventure stories.