So it's december and I've been busy being a complete slacker at school and failing to finish any of my law school applications and generally just having a pretty thorough anxiety induced breakdown. Uh. I'm pretty sure it's all due to some sort of passive-aggressive I-don't-want-to-be-in-school-anymore type feelings my subconscious is pretty much done tamping down on.

Things that are currently making me happy:

Lot's and lots of Stargate Atlantis fic.

The fact that I only have 5 things on my christmas list. I honestly couldn't think of a single thing I wanted besides a couple dvd box sets, a book, and a sewing machine (although I might not be needing that since my apartment's lease is up at the end of the month and I might have to move back in with the parents.)

Holiday Cards! I have no clue if I'll get around to doing them but give me your address and find out!

[Poll #625487]

And getting more into the holiday spirit here's some of my favorite christmas music, mostly from the Vienna Boys Choir:
1. [ VBC - What Child is This ]
2. [ VBC - Joy to the World ]
3. [ VBC - The First Noel ]
4. [ VBC - In Dulci Jubilo ]
5. [ VBC - Angels We Have Heard on High ]
6. [ VBC - O Holy Night ]
7. [ VBC - Pachelbel's Canon ]
8. [ VBC - Carol of the Bells ]
9. [ Snow Patrol - When I Get Home for Christmas ]

And while they have nothing to do with christmas Reindeer Section is very, very cool:
10. [ Reindeer Section - You Are My Joy ] seriously, the most romantic song ever.
11. [ Reindeer Section - Cartwheels ]
12. [ Reindeer Section - Strike Me Down ]

Lastly, for good measure (because I haven't been posting much at all lately)
1. I'm very political I've been doing political activism for the last 5 years and politics are really important to me. I don't think I could ever date anyone with politically divergent views and all of my friends are involved in activism to some extent or another.

2. I'm an athiest. I met a guy once who told me that he didn't believe in god but he wished he did because he thinks it's depressing that there's nothing after death. I feel the opposite way: I don't care what happens to me after I die: all the more reason to care about how I live my life and to live it without regrets and make the biggest possible impact on the world I can.

3. I have a weird relationship with my parents. They're paying for me to go to school right now, and they'll be helping out with grad school too. Which essentially means that I'm stuck in their pockets. While they're generally pretty cool about letting me make my own decisions, earlier this year they actually threatened to disown me if I pierced my lip. (this despite the fact that they both moved to San Francisco in the 60's to be anti-establishment hippies.)

4. I'll be graduating from college next semester and (probably) heading off to law school. I kind of feel like I'm rushing but I don't really have an option because of my parents.

5. I enjoy breaking stereotypes. People have a lot of initial opinions about me that I take a great deal of pleasure proving wrong. For instance: I like hardcore punk but I don't dress like it and I'm short and pretty girly so I always surprise people at shows. It's fun because instead of being the least punk-rock person in the room I'm usually the one there with the bands or passing out condoms or actually backing up the punk ethos by actually being a vegan and and doing activism.

6. I have a very strong hatred for anyone who tries to convert people to their beliefs through sheer bloody-minded righteousness (and that includes the political left). I firmly believe that I am right but I would be the last person you'd catch dismissing other people's beliefs out of hand. For example: I don't eat meat but I don't think everyone who does should convert to veganism with me. I've always viewed this stuff as being personal and while I think I should take the time to talk to people about why I think veganism is good for me, and educate them about their options, I've never tried to force someone into it.

7. If I'm wrong I'll be the first to admit it. People ask me what I think about various things all the time. I think it's stupid to blindly believe anything and if I don't feel like I have enough of the facts, I'll hold off on voicing my opinion. I learned a long time ago that people will respect you more for telling them that you don't know enough to have an opinion than they will if you take a stand and fail to be able to back it up. I also learned that admitting you're wrong about something and moving on is far easier than blindly defending yourself.

8. I think I'm getting more obsessive compulsive as I get older. I have a lot of smallish ocd behaviors, not enough to disrupt my life in any meaningful way but sometimes I'll catch myself counting things like my steps or touching sets of things and I'll wonder if I'm getting worse. The DSM-IV says that ocd comes on in the early 20s so I guess it's possible. And I like repetitive tasks; my friend's band put out a record and I folded like, 300 of the paper inserts out of boredom because I enjoy folding things and other easy manual dextrous repetitive tasks. I also enjoy html coding for the same reasons.

9. I'm happily single. I don't date very often, mostly because I don't get asked and I'm not interested in any of the single guys I know in any meaningful way and I'm perfectly okay with that. I've never felt like I'm part of a whole, or than I'm waiting for someone else to complete me or reinforce my personal well being. I'm perfectly happy to be single because I'm a pretty insular person. I don't really look to the outside world to tell me I'm a good person because I've always believed it myself.

10. Depsite my personal dating outlook, I'm a complete sap when it comes to fanfic. I'm a total OTPer. I firmly believe that my OTPs are perfect for each other and compatible in ways that they wouldn't be with other people. I guess this still fits with my dating ethos because I don't so much think that they complete each other as they complement each other. I think love is about being challenged and being equals and while I haven't found that myself, I certainly think it's possible that people do, and the romantic in me likes to see that happen.